• We Will Not Be Silent by TWLOHA

    Lifting the Bell Jar: Zoloft

    For Mental Health Awareness Month, I thought it was about time that I put my experiences with Zoloft into words. Because to be honest, it was a blog post like this that encouraged me to look into treatment options and make an appointment with my doctor. What is anxiety like? I could write whole books about my anxiety, but I will pin it down in ten points. As with everything in life there are good and bad days, so the following points can occur all at the same time; they can last for days or weeks; they can happen individually; or not be there at all. Everybody experiences anxiety differently,…

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    Mental Health New Year’s Resolutions

    In all honesty, 2017 tested my courage, perseverance, and hope. After cutting the (false) safety net of my eating disorder in the summer of 2016, “finishing” therapy shortly after, travelling through Southeast Asia half a year, and returning to Western world in spring 2017, I found myself having to face my personal challenges and fears head on without the distractions of foreign cultures and exciting adventures, or self-destructive coping mechanisms. How did that go? Disastrously. I was not prepared to fully experience my insecurities, inner conflicts, and downward spiralling thought loops. I don’t see any shame in openly admitting that I failed in many ways and gave in to the…

  • Vancouver Science World

    When your ‘Dark Passenger’ travels along

    I have always said that travelling is one of the greatest opportunities you can get for personal growth and fighting (some) of your mental battles. I still believe that is true, especially for shorter periods of up to two months or so. Yet, my perspective on longer-term travelling and coping with mental health problems has changed over the last couple of months. When I left Berlin in September (5 months ago at the time of writing!), my mental state was stable and I felt ready to take on anything that would come my way. You could hear the world tremble at the prospect. During the ten weeks I spent in…

  • Jon and Vany in Sen Monorom

    Exploring Cambodia with Local Guides

    Before going to Cambodia, I never really had a local guide to show me around. To be honest, I never really thought about the benefits that much, instead I thought “Oh wait, pay $[x] more to get someone to show me the sights or give me a tour? Nah, I’m fine.” I am still travelling on a budget, so I understand if you are having similar thoughts. But, deciding to get a local guide has made my Cambodia travels so much more special, and I can only recommend it to everyone. Spend those extra dollars, and you’ll be rewarded with extra special memories. We tried different kinds of guides during…

  • Angkor Wat

    Angkor Wat x Banteay Chhmar

    Jon and I are currently travelling through Cambodia, such a beautiful (and dusty) country, and the people here are the so welcoming. We kicked off our journey in Siem Reap, where we visited Angkor Wat right on our first day – perfect timing as we found out. Just a few days later we went to see Banteay Chhmar, which lies 170km north-west of Angkor. Both are Khmer Buddhist temple sites, yet they are very different from each other. This post is not to say go to one or the other, but rather to encourage  you to see both if you ever make your way over here. Accessability & Costs Angkor Wat…

  • Chiang Mai

    Chiang Mai – Paradise in Northern Thailand

    I’ve just spent another two months in Chiang Mai in northern Thailand. In the last 1,5 years, I’ve visited Chiang Mai four times, and stayed there for six months all together. I think after all this time I now have a pretty good feel of the city’s vibe, and was lucky to become a part of it. This will not be the typical “20 Awesome Things to Do in Chiang Mai” type of post, but instead I’ll write about how you can experience Chiang Mai from a different perspective, one that goes beyond ticking boxes on your sightseeing list. For me, I feel like opening your eyes and immersing yourself…

  • Campfire

    This is supposed to be hard

    In a few hours, I will be boarding a plane to leave Vancouver and make my way to Chiang Mai, Thailand. I got six months of traveling through Southeast Asia ahead of me. But it’s a bittersweet feeling. To be honest, it’s more bitter than sweet right now. I see that as a very positive thing though. I fell in love here, with the city. Even on my bad days here, I still felt extremely lucky to call this place my new home. I walked along the Seawall, watched the waves crash, looked at the mountains, and thought to myself “This is it. This is what I’ve been looking for.”…

  • Lighthouse Park

    It’s not just rainbows & butterflies

    When I started this blog, I told myself that this will not fall into the category of “glossed over versions of reality.” I think there is enough of that out there, and it is not really helping anyone. Instead I want to be completely honest. Today, I want to share what it is like to move to the other side of the world with anxiety and while recovering from an eating disorder. I will not describe any details, as I do not want to trigger anyone. To be clear, this is just my personal experience, and does not apply to everyone out there. If you would like to share your experiences…

  • YVR x BER

    Vancouver x Berlin

    Last weekend marked my “one month in Vancouver” milestone, which made me think about how this city is different from my home city of Berlin. First, I should say I absolutely love Berlin. For me, it is the greatest city in the world. It is really hard to compete with that. However, I could not stay in Berlin anymore because, although I love the city with all my heart, I needed a break from its people. Berliners are rude, unfriendly, grumpy, always in a rush, and complain a lot (not all of them obviously, there are amazing people as well). As I have gone through a lot of personal changes…

  • Techno

    Techno – balm for my soul, fuel for my academic career.

    If you are serious about your academic path, being in university and keeping up with all the coursework is time-consuming, and sometimes overwhelming. If you also have a job at the same time. It is far too easy to lose yourself in work. There’s always something you could be working on, because as a student you don’t really get to have a break. Reading, research, exams, papers, presentations, and the list could go on and on. The same holds true for anyone, who is ambitious, and dedicated to their job. It’s just that the small print is different. Last year, I got to a point where I was ready to…