• We Will Not Be Silent by TWLOHA

    Lifting the Bell Jar: Zoloft

    For Mental Health Awareness Month, I thought it was about time that I put my experiences with Zoloft into words. Because to be honest, it was a blog post like this that encouraged me to look into treatment options and make an appointment with my doctor. What is anxiety like? I could write whole books about my anxiety, but I will pin it down in ten points. As with everything in life there are good and bad days, so the following points can occur all at the same time; they can last for days or weeks; they can happen individually; or not be there at all. Everybody experiences anxiety differently,…

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    Mental Health New Year’s Resolutions

    In all honesty, 2017 tested my courage, perseverance, and hope. After cutting the (false) safety net of my eating disorder in the summer of 2016, “finishing” therapy shortly after, travelling through Southeast Asia half a year, and returning to Western world in spring 2017, I found myself having to face my personal challenges and fears head on without the distractions of foreign cultures and exciting adventures, or self-destructive coping mechanisms. How did that go? Disastrously. I was not prepared to fully experience my insecurities, inner conflicts, and downward spiralling thought loops. I don’t see any shame in openly admitting that I failed in many ways and gave in to the…

  • Spotlight

    Conference World Debut: Oh hi, anxie— err excitement!

    I just came back from my first *real* conference (one that was directly related to my work and passion), and it was incredible and overwhelming. I was super excited when I got invited to the Open Science Fair in Athens. First Open Science conference, first time in Greece, first poster presentation. Before I left for the conference a couple other firsts got added to that list: first conference talk and I landed my first job right before the conference. All of these things were a huge confidence boost and made me even more excited to go, yet feelings of excitement and anxiety lie really close together. So, my mind kind…

  • Campfire

    This is supposed to be hard

    In a few hours, I will be boarding a plane to leave Vancouver and make my way to Chiang Mai, Thailand. I got six months of traveling through Southeast Asia ahead of me. But it’s a bittersweet feeling. To be honest, it’s more bitter than sweet right now. I see that as a very positive thing though. I fell in love here, with the city. Even on my bad days here, I still felt extremely lucky to call this place my new home. I walked along the Seawall, watched the waves crash, looked at the mountains, and thought to myself “This is it. This is what I’ve been looking for.”…

  • Lighthouse Park

    It’s not just rainbows & butterflies

    When I started this blog, I told myself that this will not fall into the category of “glossed over versions of reality.” I think there is enough of that out there, and it is not really helping anyone. Instead I want to be completely honest. Today, I want to share what it is like to move to the other side of the world with anxiety and while recovering from an eating disorder. I will not describe any details, as I do not want to trigger anyone. To be clear, this is just my personal experience, and does not apply to everyone out there. If you would like to share your experiences…